Musing out loud
I’ll wait for you here.
I trust you’re not far.
It was you who called me,
after all.
I still remember.
I lived in decay,
the kind that can’t be overcome
by strength or will.
In the cellar of broken dreams
you shone your light
and found me, emaciated,
covered in cobwebs.
You left the old door open,
standing just outside,
and read out loud, so I could see
stories in darkness.
Many seasons passed.
But I finally emerged,
lured to the sound
of your lyric visions.
You placed one hand
firm on my shoulder,
and my knees nearly buckled
from weakness.
You said, “Now you’ve come,
emerged into light.
And you’ll never return
to the shadows.”
We walked.
You talked of potential,
of patience and study
and time.
I listened.
I watched the clouds climb
where mountains reach out
to the skies.
You talked of acceptance,
the power of faith,
a trust in the value
of learning.
I listened,
and built castles of sand
and watched them return
to the sea.
Then I suddenly saw it,
the long steady path
you had been hinting at
with breadcrumb words.
It was covered in shrubs,
weaves of poison oak,
and the old fallen branches
of deeply rooted tears.
And I found myself
shifting the past years’ leaves
beneath an uncertain tread
of discovery.
Behind me I heard
your soft-fallen feet
hardly disturbing
the settled breath of dew,
and the sound of your voice,
naming the leaves,
the blossoms, stones and creatures
on the way.
And each had a story,
of birth and being—
the stones that weep dreams;
the earthquake birth of ravens;
the old madrone
who clothed the fox with her bark
so he would not be cold;
the star that seeded lilies.
And each was a marvel,
a touch of understanding,
a fresh new flash of light
in my soul.
We came to a cabin,
moons along the way,
filled with lost ideas
and empty pages.
I lit the candles,
read beneath the darkness,
and penciled meditations,
brief as lake-borne mist.
Collecting berries,
I played with long dead lyrics,
reciting little moments
to the wind.
One day you told me,
“This time is yours.
You can never really own it
while I remain.”
And so you left,
assuring you’ll return
when one day I am ready
to skim the stars.